All Done

Camp wasn't easy. In fact, as I look back now, a few days past, it was hard. I felt like every time I turned around there was a situation that needed my attention; kids not paying attention or following instruction, being unkind to one another or not doing what they had been asked to do. Unfortunately these weren't the only issues going on.

Here are some of the deeper things that most of these small 8,9, and 10 year olds are already dealing with. Fear, rejection, anxiety, pride, manipulation and more. Isn't it interesting that I have and do deal with these same issues/bondage's? At times I do feel as though I, along with Jesus, am winning the battle, but at other times I do feel defeated. I hate that these kids have some of the same things going on in their life at such a young age. It comes in different forms in my life, most of all, I love to please men more then I think about pleasing God. How awful to say that! It hurts, its honest. I want to change.

On Friday, as we drove back into the church parking lot we saw all the excited mom's and dad's waiting patiently, not wanting to burst out of their skin to come grab their son or daughter to tell them just how much they missed them, we got all their stuff from the class and sent them home. For most of the kids this is the longest they had been from home. Mom and dad were ready to have them back.

As they slowly faded away and there was finally a silence in the air, I felt the Lord telling me something. "The hard part is over, now you know them, they know you and trust you as a voice in their lives." I am broken but I love that the Lord will not only still use me but He still loves and cares for me....ahhh...it's that simple!